Perhaps, when we are beating around the bush, we are simply trying to buy ourselves time. We could be buying time for any number of reasons, but either way, we are trying to put off the inevitable. Staying in that sense of limbo, never having to learn what the response will be to your statement or question. Right now, I sit in that very spot. I have news that I want to share, but I fear the response. I obviously fear the response of negativity, but I also fear the positive. If I am supported, it would be even more humiliating if this project did not go as planned, I stumbled or failed.
For better or worse, I can be extremely sensitive and take comments to heart that shouldn't matter in the scheme of things. There are soooooooo many things that could go wrong and I have never tried something like this before. As the people of Oz would say, this is "a horse of a different color." Quite frankly, I am elated and absolutely terrified at the same time. It has me wanting to bolt forward with confidence and excitement, while also wanting to say "Oh, HELL no!" and running away. Do I take the risk? Do I share this new, little seedling with the world, or do I let it grow a bit before bringing it out into the elements? There is no obvious answer.
So now, I have decided to have confidence in myself. I will make this work. If I don't have faith in myself, how can others have faith in me? Have confidence in my product? So now I will get to the point.
I am a teacher and a damn fine one. I have found so much joy in my work that I have decided to take this to the next level. I am creating my own school and tutoring center. I'm building a freakin' business y'all!!!!!
