For a long time, I just went along with whatever other people wanted to do. If my friends wanted to stay up and party til the sun came up even though I was tired and wanted to sleep, ok! If everyone wanted to stay in even though I wanted to go out, ok! If someone wanted me to take them somewhere and I didn't feel like going anywhere, I would do it anyway!
So recently, I decided to do the things that I wanted. Instead of pushing aside MY wants and needs, I have been respecting myself enough to say no when I want to say no and say yes when I want to say yes. The problem is a few of my friends have had a hard time with this transition. They think I don't like them anymore just cause I am tired and decide to go home instead of staying out til the wee-morning hours. They think I only hang around for food or some stupid thing like that because I say I don't feel like doing something or going somewhere. Frankly, it is frustrating!
But I realize it is a transition. No one is used to me looking out for me. They are used to me looking out for everyone else. So here is this blog post - a note to those who think I am not happy with them, don't want to hang out with them, don't want to be their friend, or anything else completely silly like that. Guess what. I still like you. I'm not going anywhere. I will still support my friends no matter what. Deal with it.
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